Do You Understand?

Is not a crime! Is a love story!

对不起

我现在的心情很不好受
我的心很痛
真的很痛

痛

我开始对我自己没有信心
总觉得每件事都做不好
Even is a very small matter yet i just couldn't get it finish

I hate myself for not getting anything
I hate myself with the jealousy attitude
I hate myself for being lazy
I hate myself that i always break the promises

I HATE ME

我很后悔
我很内疚
我很气我自己
为什么一直想些有的没的

我很努力去思考
我很努力去明白

可是我永远都不会赢

I Realize That...

I realize that there's something ugly happening. Yes, i'm not a sensitive person but somehow you will know if you're in a matter. I'm trying to write it as confusing as i can. Haa. I'm BAD!
As a student, we often need to have presentation in class. So, it will be either in group or individually. Hmm... Working with new people is challenging because you don't know their characters and i admit that i bring my emotion into the work. >.< Ya, obviously i am a double layer face person. =.=
When you're a very talented person and your everything is so perfect and fine, therefore, other people will automatically wanted to learn or know more from you. In another way if you're a dumb and sucks, for sure there's nobody will want to get any closer with you. This is so sad in the human living.
Because i'm the dumb!!! Hmm... Well, i'm also a back stepper. Hee.

Today is the shittiest day i ever had in my life! And i will never show my kindness anymore. I'll be bad! Haa!

P.S. - I miss those days with my lung family~ Our mcD in section 14, SS2's pasar malam, Sunway, Mid Valley, Orange's hse, assignment and presentation's days, lung-ing around campus, etc...

I Wish To Have A Long Holiday

Gosh! I need a long holiday now. Lost my breath while climbing the mountain of assignment. =.= I just need a long holiday~ Hmm... Maybe is not a long holiday but at least i need a short one. Hee. Please~ Exhausted brain can't get any best ideas. Haa. =.= I'm so so so so so damn fucking exhausted. LOL.

It's GONE!!!

Can't detect my pendrive last night. FUCK! I lost all my documents in a sudden. >.< Nidda redo everything and backup as many as i can. Stupid Kingston Data Traveler 8GB! Useless pendrive. Damn it!

I'm Sorry...

I'm behaving like a super bastard. Why do i say so? For a very tiny reason and it's driving me crazy. I'm lost of control. T_T I'm doing the wrong things. I don't have the permission, yet, i'm still letting myself to read the inbox. I know i'm a bastard but i wanted to know what is happening. I dunno why i keep thinking negatively, i wish i can stop myself from doing all the stupid things. T_T I'm sorry...