I'm Sorry...

I'm behaving like a super bastard. Why do i say so? For a very tiny reason and it's driving me crazy. I'm lost of control. T_T I'm doing the wrong things. I don't have the permission, yet, i'm still letting myself to read the inbox. I know i'm a bastard but i wanted to know what is happening. I dunno why i keep thinking negatively, i wish i can stop myself from doing all the stupid things. T_T I'm sorry...